Chapter 8: Love Will Find A Way

Thank you so much for all the comments on the last chapter! This Chap is rated M.

Nicki had been in Australia for a couple days now. It was December 2^nd and she was still thinking about Drake every minute of the day. Luckily for her, her fans helped get her mind off of him for a while whenever she saw them. Her and Safaree’s relationship had gotten somewhat better but he was still acting moody. Despite everything, she was having a blast in Australia. She had done three shows already and they had all been sold out.

She loved performing for her fans because that was a way for her to thank them for being so loyal. They always knew all the raps and all the lyrics to her songs. Her last show was tomorrow night then she would be heading to New York to spend Christmas with her family since Drake obviously had given up on her. But she couldn’t blame him. She had basically made out with Safaree and now she had to face the consequences.

Nicki finished putting on her makeup and ran her fingers through her wig one last time before grabbing her purse and heading out of the suite. She was dressed down and had on a pair of skinny jeans that Drake had bought her at the mall, a white fitted tee with gold print, and a pink blazer. She was headed out to have lunch with Rihanna. Surprisingly, Rihanna’s manager had called Manny to tell him that

Rihanna was in Australia doing shows too so they set up a lunch date so that the two of them could catch up. Nicki walked into the restaurant as casually as possible. She adored her fans and wouldn’t mind talking to them but she didn’t want the paparazzi to make a scene. After a few seconds Nicki was greeted by the restaurant manager.

“Hello Ms. Minaj how are you today?”

“I’m fine thank you.” Nicki eyed the short white man.

“Follow me please. Ms. Fenty has been waiting for you for quite some time now.” Nicki followed the man up the stairs to a private area. Rihanna was talking on the phone until she looked up and saw Nicki.

“Okay baby I have to go… love you too.” Rihanna ended the call and stuffed her phone in her purse then stood up to hug Nicki. “Nicki how are you?” She asked in her Barbados accent.

“I’m fine my darling. I’m so sorry I’m late. You know my late ass can never get anywhere on time.” Rihanna laughed and the two shared a friendly hug.

“It’s okay. I kept myself occupied.” The two made small talk while they looked over the menu to decide what to eat. Nicki was in the mood for meat but they didn’t have what she wanted. Rihanna broke Nicki out of her thoughts.

“So you’re out here doing shows too huh? What are the odds of us both being here?”

“Small world.” Crab… that sounds nice… especially with butter.

“So any guys catching your eyes these days?”

“Maybe, what about you?” As soon as Nicki asked that Rihanna blushed.

“Chris and I are going to give it another try.”

“Aww I’m so happy for you. You guys are so cute together. Is that who you were talking to on the phone?”

“Yeah, he’s so sweet you know? He calls me everyday just to tell me how much he misses me.” Rihanna beamed.

“Cute.” Nicki gave a friendly smile. Just then the waiter came to bring water and take their orders. After ordering, the waiter left and the two continued their conversation.

“So who exactly might be catching Nicki Minaj’s eye?”

“Sorry babe but that’s pretty exclusive information.” Nicki took a sip of her drink.

“Oh come on, I told you about me and Chris.”

“But this is how things get out and the whole world already knew about you and Chris. Even a blind man could see it.”

“Please.” Rihanna gave a smile showing her pearly white teeth.

“Fine… it’s Drake.” Once Nicki said that Rihanna’s smile fell.

“Oh… Drake.”

“Yeah.” Nicki smiled to herself looking at the table. “He’s really great.”

Trust me I know. Rihanna thought to herself. Although she was in love with Chris, she had always had feelings towards Drake that she never understood. If she and Chris ever broke up she had always thought of Drake as her back up. If Drake was with Nicki, then who would be there to love her if things didn’t work out between her and Chris? How was Drake supposed to be her rebound boy if he and Nicki were together?

“So you two are together now then?” Rihanna tried to dig for information.

“Well, not exactly. I’m trying to get us past a bump I guess.”

“What do you mean?”

“Just having some problems, that’s all I mean.” Nosey much?

“Good to know.” Rihanna muttered under her breath.

“What?” Nicki was trying to figure is she had heard what she thought she had.

“I said look at the snow.” Rihanna pointed out the window at the falling snow.

“Oh, yeah. The snow.” Nicki took a sip of her drink. Nicki wasn’t a dummy and she felt like she was getting a bad vibe from Rihanna. She was feeling a bit awkward and wanted this lunch to be over as soon as possible. Once the two got their lunch Nicki enjoyed her crab a lot more than she had expected to. Ima be gettin this more often!

Nicki and Rihanna talked a little about shows, music, and upcoming albums. By the time Nicki was finished with her plate she was ready to leave. “Well it was great seeing you again but I have to get going.” Nicki stood up after placing two hundreds on the table.

“You’re not having desert?” Rihanna asked casually before taking the last bite of her food.

“Uh, no. I really have to go. Gotta rehearse and all that for my last show tomorrow.” Nicki knew it was a lie but she needed to get away from Rihanna.

“Oh, well then I guess I’ll see you when I see you.”

“Yeah. Have a great Christmas.” Nicki said heading out of the area to go down the stairs.”

“You too.” And with that Nicki was gone. She couldn’t get out of there fast enough. Maybe she just wasn’t feeling well or maybe her gut was right and Rihanna was bad news. Whatever it was Nicki was ready to go back and relax in her suite for the rest of the afternoon.

After her driver took her back to the hotel she rode the elevator up to the top floor. She used her key card to open the door and was surprised when she walked in that the lights were on. She figured it was just maintenance but when she looked over at the couch she was surprised by who she saw.

“Aubrey.” Nicki stared in disbelief. “You’re here.”

“Yeah, here I am but the question is, was it a waste of time to come?”

“What do you mean?” Nicki walked over to where he was sitting and sat down on the far end of the couch. She wasn’t sure whether she should give him space or not.

“Why are you sitting way over there?”

Guess I got my answer. Nicki slid over towards him on the couch, still not sure of what to do. Drake leaned down and helped her out of her heels then wrapped his arm around her shoulder to bring her into his chest. She snuggled into him and inhaled his scent. He smelled so good and she had missed being in his arms.

“I missed you so much.” Nicki said then buried her face into his warm chest.

“I missed you too.”

“You came for me.”

“I love you. Of course I did.”

“So we’re good?” Nicki said looking up at him.

“No Onika, were not good.” A frown fell upon Nicki’s face and Drake sighed.

“I need you to tell me why you kissed him.”

“He kissed me.” Nicki corrected.

“So you’re telling me you didn’t kiss him back? At all?”

“No.” Nicki said in a small voice.

“So you did kiss him.” Drake said knowingly.

“Yes.” Nicki said in a small voice once again. “But I didn’t mean to. I just got caught up in a moment that wasn’t real.”

“And you know if the tables were turned and I gave you that same excuse it would take a lifetime for you to trust me again.” Nicki laid her head on his chest and said nothing because she knew he was right. Drake chuckled to himself and Nicki looked up. “I guess you’re lucky I’m not you huh?” A huge grin spread across Nicki’s face.

“So you forgive me?” She asked excitedly while sitting up.

“Yes munchkin I forgive you.”

“Hey, I’m no munchkin I’m fun sized.” Nicki pouted while crossing her arms across her chest.

“You don’t wanna be a munchkin?” Drake asked as he lifted Nicki onto his lap to face him. She shook her head no. “Not even my munchkin?” Drake slid her pink blazer down her arms and laid it on the back of the couch.

“Mmm, I guess I could be your munchkin.” Nicki wrapped her arms around his neck and attacked his lips. Drake rubbed his hands up and down her thighs as both of them were getting more and more into the kiss. Drake picked her up and headed to the bedroom not breaking the kiss. Once he entered the doorway Nicki pulled apart from him and looked into his eyes.  “Aubrey.”

“Yes sweetheart.”

“Please don’t ever leave me.”

“Never.” He laid her on the bed. He lifted his shirt over his head and tossed it across the room then leaned down to kiss her. He ran his fingers through her hair while they continued to kiss passionately. He snaked his hands under her shirt and then broke the kiss so he could lift it over her head. After he flung it somewhere in the room he crashed his lips into hers once again. He ran his hands all over her body. Her skin was so smooth.

Nicki arched her back so that he could unhook her bra. Once he got rid of that too, he moved his lips downward. He placed soft kisses down her neck while taking his time with her. This was the night he had been dreaming about for so many years and he wanted it to be perfect. He moved to her shoulder still caressing her body and running his fingertips up and down her sides.

Drake continued to move lower, leaving a trail of wet kisses behind. Nicki’s breathing was picking up. His lips felt so good on her body and she didn’t want him to stop. He moved his hands up to her breasts. He was in awe of them. He looked up at her and slipped one into his mouth. Nicki moaned out in pleasure as he massaged the other one. He gave the other the same treatment then decided to continue his quest.

He kissed over her ribs, then her stomach, and past her belly button. He unbuttoned her jeans and slid them down over her thick thighs and let them drop to the floor. He leaned back up and kissed her lips again while he slid his hand into her thong. His fingers brushed past the smooth skin and down to her wet center. He found her clit and began massaging her in slow circles. Nicki moaned into his mouth and wrapped her arms around his back.

He smiled at the moisture he was creating. He then dipped two fingers into her wetness. She was tight. He removed his hand and moved down towards the edge of the bed. Drake took off his black jeans and tossed them somewhere in the room. He then pulled Nicki’s thong off in one swift motion and dipped his tongue into her center. She moaned out in pleasure.

Drake continued working his tongue and Nicki ran her hands through his curly hair. It had grown out a little since the last time she saw him. All that could be heard in the room were Nicki’s low moans. She was in heaven. His tongue game was unmatched. Soon enough she felt a familiar feeling rush over her body. A feeling she hadn't felt in a while.

“Brey.” She moaned.

“Shh baby just let it happen.” Drake flicked his tongue over her clit one last time and she cried out in pleasure as she released into is mouth. After Drake cleaned her up he took his boxers off and leaned up to kiss her.

“Do you have a condom?” Nicki breathed heavily.

“No but I’ll pull out.” Nicki gave him an unsure look. “I promise.”

“Brey-”

“Do you trust me?” Drake asked looking into her beautiful eyes.

“With all my heart.” That was all he needed to hear. He positioned himself between her legs and spread her second set of lips. He carefully inserted his head into her wetness.

“Wait Aubrey.”

“Hmm?” He buried his face into her neck and sucked on her smooth skin.

“I… I’m not ready.” Drake lifted his head to look at her. He sighed while pulling out then rolled off of her onto his back trying to catch his breath. Nicki got up with the silk sheet wrapped around her body and went to the bathroom. She closed the door behind her and dropped the sheet. The best thing she thought she needed was a warm shower to gather her thoughts. She turned the shower on and waited for it to get warm.

Once it got to the temperature she liked, she stepped in and let the water cascade over her body. She leaned her head under the showerhead and let her hair get wet. She grabbed her Victoria Secret body wash and her washcloth that she had brought and lathered up her body. The vanilla scented aroma cleared up her head as she rinsed the suds off. She stepped out the shower and wrapped herself up in a towel. She looked at herself in the mirror.

Why am I doing this to myself? Why can’t I just let go off my past and let him love me. God knows I want to but I can’t be hurt again. God, I almost gave myself to him and we’ve only been officially dating for two weeks. And without a condom? What was I thinking! But I love him though. Maybe that’s what I was thinking. Is it so bad to share myself with the person I love? I’ve known him for more than five years. He’s the only person that can identify with how I feel sometimes. He gets me in a way that no other person does. Not even Safaree. Shit, I forgot all about Safaree. What’s up with him? I act like I don’t love him anymore but I can’t fool myself. I just don’t know what kind of love that is. I don’t think I ever really stopped loving him but he hurt me and I don’t tolerate that abusive shit. Ugh! Just thinking about it makes me want to punch a wall or something. I know Drake would never hut me. I need to talk to him. I probably made him feel like he did something wrong but it’s me. I need to get out of my head and just love him.

Nicki opened the bathroom door and looked out at Drake. He was lying on his back in only his boxers. He had his arms behind his head and was looking up at the ceiling. Man I really fucked up this time. I probably pressured her into all of that but I thought she was into it… Drake snapped out of his thoughts when he felt Nicki sit down on the bed. He looked over at her wrapped up in her towel and watched beads of water slide down her exposed skin. He sat up to face her with clear guilt on his face.

“It was the condom thing wasn’t it?” He asked, rubbing the back of his head.

“No, it wasn’t. I just feel like things are moving too fast. We haven’t even been a couple for that long and I need time to think things over.”

“But what is there to think over? I love you and you love me so why can’t we just celebrate our love?”

“Because I need time to get more comfortable with you being my boyfriend before we can have sex Aubrey.” Drake sighed.

“If that’s what you want then I can wait.”

“Really?” Nicki asked with a small smile.

“Yeah. I waited five years so I guess I can wait a little longer.”

“I love you so much.”

“I love you too.” Nicki leaned closer to Drake and kissed him. “Now go get dressed so I can take you out.” Nicki smiled and got up to go to the closet to find something to wear.

“Where are we going?”

“Somewhere fun. Just dress comfortable.”

“Why can’t you ever tell me where we’re going?”

“Cause I’m bad like that.” Nicki scoffed.

“Whatever.” Nicki grabbed her clothes and went back to the bathroom to dry off and change. Since Christmas was nearing Nicki settled for some white skinny jeans and a red sweater. When she came back out Drake was fully dressed and waiting on the side of her bed.

“Look at you with all that Christmas spirit.”

“Yeah and look at you with all that black.” Nicki said sarcastically.

“You ready?”

“Yep, just let me call maintenance to come and change the sheets.” After Nicki called them, she and Drake made their way down to the lobby and into Drake’s rental car. Meanwhile, Safaree was just headed to Nicki’s room because they had made plans to go out. Sadly, he was beginning to feel like the chances of him and Nicki getting back together were gone but at least he could spend sometime with her in Australia without Drake being in the way. Safaree knocked on the door and waited for an answer. He was surprised when a maid opened the door instead of Nicki.

“Uh, hi.”

“Hello sir. How are you?”

“Fine… what are you doing in here?”

“Just changing sheets sir.”

“Don’t you do that in the morning?”

“Yes we do sir but we just got a request to change the sheets.”

“Oh, so would you happen to know where Nicki Minaj went?”

“This is Nicki Minaj’s room!” The maid’s eyes got wide.

“Yeah but do you know where she went?” Safaree was getting agitated by the second.”

“Oh. Yes sir she was spotted leaving the hotel with Drake. They’re such a cute couple.”

“Drake?”

“Yes sir.”

“He’s here? In Australia?”

“That’s what I heard sir.”

Safaree turned around and headed back to his room infuriated. Changing the sheets huh? So they’re fucking now?” Safaree opened then slammed his room door behind him. He threw his suitcases on the bed then went to the closet to grab his clothes. He threw them into his suitcases with the rest if his things and zipped them up. I’m over this shit.

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Chapter 7: Letting Go

“Babe I’m back!” Nicki opened then closed the door behind her. “Faree?” Nicki made her way to the bedroom and saw Safaree sitting on the bed. He had his eyes closed and his fists balled up tight. He was shaking and breathing heavily. “Faree are you okay? What’s wrong?” Nicki began to walk over to him.

“Don’t you dare come near me.” He said in a low voice.

“What? Safaree what are you talking about?” Nicki stood in front of him but before she could say another word Safaree had pushed her across the room. She didn’t know exactly what happened but she was on the floor and her back hurt. She looked up and saw Safaree walking over to her. She stretched out her arms to be helped up but that wasn’t the response you got.

“You think you can play me? I’ve been completely faithful to you Onika and you play me like this!”

“Safaree …” Nicki was scared out of her mind. She had never seen him like this before. “Safaree please calm down.” Her voice was shaking. Safaree picked her up by the collar of her shirt and slammed her against the wall.

“Don’t tell me to calm down! You cheat on me and you think you can tell me what the fuck to do!”

“Safaree I don't know what you're talking about. I don't understand. I would never cheat on you. I love you.” Nicki was sobbing at this point. Her back hurt and her head was throbbing from being slammed into the wall. Worst of all, she was being thrown around and yelled at by the man that was supposed to love and protect her. Safaree gripped her neck and leaned close to her face.

“Don't you dare lie to me.” He spat and tightened his grip. It was getting harder for Nicki to breathe. The air was escaping and it wasn't coming back.

“Sa-fa-ree p-lease.” She could barely get the words out.

“I give you my all…” Safaree could feel himself getting angrier by the second. “…and Rex comes and tells me you sucked him off!” Safaree was gripping her neck with all force. She was starting to slip away and see the light leave her.

“Sa-fa…” that was it Nicki slipped away into the darkness.

“Nicki … Nicki … Nicki.” Nicki woke up to see Safaree hovering over her gently shaking her. Her eyes got wide at the sudden site of Safaree but she quickly composed herself when she looked around and realized that she was on a plane.

“Hey sleepy.” Safaree smiled. “We just landed. You hungry?” He asked as he unbuckled her seatbelt for her. She was dazed and out of breath but then remembered that they were flying to Australia.

“Nic?”

“Hmm?”

“You hungry?”

“Uh, no. Just tired.”

“You want me to carry you to the limo?”

“No Safaree I can walk.” She said annoyed then getting up. As soon as she took a step, she tripped and nearly fell but Safaree was right there to catch her.

“Thanks.” Nicki said dryly.

“I'll always be here for you Nic.” She still didn't feel like talking to him. She was jetlagged and drowsy from her sleeping pills. It was only 2:00 in the afternoon but she was in no condition to be exploring Australia right now. Nicki, Safaree, and the rest of her team arrived at the hotel and checked in. When Nicki entered the master suite Safaree entered behind her carrying her bags. They made their way into the bedroom and she plopped down on the bed. She watched Safaree set her bags in front of the dresser. She was expecting him to leave but then he started to unpack her bags for her. To say she was annoyed would be an understatement. She was still mad at him.

“Safaree you don’t have to do that.”

“It's no problem Nic really.” He continued to unpack her shoe bag and placed two more pairs in the closet. Nicki closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

“Safaree I just wanna go to sleep and I can’t do that with you messing around in my bags.” Safaree looked up and caught the attitude in her voice.

“This is about Drake isn’t it?”

“Safaree not now.”

“Yes Nicki now.” Safaree stood up. “You see how he's ruined stuff for us? Before the VMAs you were comfortable around me and now you ignore me every time you see me.”

“You did this to yourself Safaree.”

“But we don’t even talk anymore.”

“Like I said, you did this to yourself.”

“But I miss that, the jokes and the good memories we use to make.”

“Fine! You want to talk let’s talk. Sit down.” Safaree figured he wouldn’t try his luck by sitting on the bed so he pulled up a chair. He waited for her to start. “You broke my trust. How am I supposed to talk and joke around with a person that I don’t trust?”

“You can trust me Nicki.” She waited a while before speaking

“You know what I just realized?”

“What?”

“All this time I’ve been blaming you for everything that goes wrong with me and Drake, but none of this is your fault.” A smile spread across Safaree’s face.

“Well I’m glad you feel that way because-”

“It’s mine.” She cut him off. “It’s all my fault because I let you ruin things for us. I keep you around.” Safaree’s smiled dropped. “But from now on that’s going to change.”

“Nicki what are you-”

“Give me your key.”

“What?” He didn’t understand what was going on. He thought this conversation would be going in a completely different direction.”

“Give me your key to my house… both of them.”

“Nicki-”

“Give them to me Safaree… or were done.” Safaree couldn’t believe this was happening but he didn’t want to lose Nicki forever. He reached in his pocket and removed the key from his keychain, then pulled out his wallet and took the second one out too. He gave them both to her and immediately felt detached. “And as soon as we get home I want you to give me the last one in your condo. Got it?”

“Yeah… but I was just tryin to protect you Nic.”

“Protect me from what Safaree, the man I love? Don’t you want me to be happy?”

“Of course but I just don’t understand why you can’t be happy with me.”

“You gave that option up when you put your hands on me and you know that.” There was sadness in Safaree’s tone but sternness in Nicki’s.

“But it was one mistake.” He felt a tear slide down his cheek. Nicki was the only person that he would let see him at his weakest.

“One mistake that put me in the hospital with a concussion and bruises all over my back. It’s just not going to work. I can’t put myself back in that situation. You should be lucky I’m not scared to be alone with you in this room right now.” Safaree dropped his head in shame. Nicki stretched her hand out and placed it on top of his. “I forgive you but you need to realize that I have another man in my life now, and if you can’t accept that then we have to part ways.” Safaree cupped her small hand in both of his. “Can you deal with just being my hype man? Can you deal with just being my friend?”

“But what about our kiss? I could feel we had a moment.”

“It was a moment of the past Safaree.”

“But you still love me. I know you do.” Safaree rubbed small circles in the back of Nicki’s hand with his thumb and Nicki pulled away.

“Of course I love you Safaree. I’ll always have a special place in my heart for you but I’ve moved on and I want you to do the same. So stop budding into my relationship. Please Safaree, he makes me happy. Just let me be happy.” Nicki looked at his hurt expression and waited for a response. Safaree thought about it well before answering.

“Okay.” He answered lowly.

“Okay?” She didn’t expect him to agree that easily but she was happy that he would still be in her life.

“I’ll always be here for you. You know that right?”

“Yes Safaree thank you.” She held out her arms for a hug and Safaree stood up then bent down to hug her.

“But if Drake does anything to hurt you…” Safaree shook his head. “…I’ll kick his ass.” Nicki laughed to herself and pulled apart from him.

“Safaree I’m tired.”

“Okay, well I'll see you later. He walked towards the door and as he opened it he looked back. “And I'm sorry for everything. You can trust me Nicki.” And with that he let himself out. Nicki went to the bathroom to shower. When she came back she checked her phone to see if Drake had replied to any of her texts but he hadn’t. She climbed into the king-sized bed and texted Drake one last time before she went to bed.

-       I love you

She fell asleep waiting for Drake to reply.

*****

Drake lied in bed staring at his phone. He kept reading Nicki’s message over and over. He didn't know what to think. He had started to have doubts about whether this was the right direction to go in his life. He had loved Nicki since the first day he laid eyes on her at Young Money’s first meet and greet but even then Safaree was with her 24/7. That’s why it took him so long to get some courage and ask Nicki out.

Maybe he had waited too long to make his move. What he didn’t understand was what this message meant.  I love you. Wow. Did she really love him or was she just stringing him along. Why would she wait until the big blowup to finally tell him that she loved him? But deep down he knew Nicki and he knew that she would never toss around that word. Love. Drake got up and packed a bag but he didn’t bother to change. That was the furthest thing from his mind. He called Forty while making his way out the door.

“Yo what up Drizzy what you need?” Forty spoke with clear sleep in his voice. It was only 10:00 in the morning but he hadn’t gotten up yet.

 “Sorry for waking you up man but I’m leaving now so we’ll have to push back the meeting.”

“What? Leaving where?”

“I don’t know yet but I’ll let you know soon. I gotta go.” Drake punched in the code for his house alarm system. “I’ll talk to you later man.”

“Wait dude why are you leaving?”

“To get my woman back.” Drake hung up the phone, got in his car, and drove to the airport. He didn’t know where Nicki was but he was determined to find out and bring her home.

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